Thoughts

Every flicker of a second
takes time into a new level
every single blink
were alive

but for how long,
i smell the air
thats fills me
is this real

touch of a note
flickering memories
tigger the heart

but love what is that
it is not function
yet it fires us

time ticking away
every choice
from the electric
tastes our density

whats a future
whats hope

but a single heart beat
tells us were right
a tear rolls and falls
untill there is nothing left

The battle in my heart

many reasons
to forget you
Why I want you
I don’t understand

I was so fine without you
Let my arms are still open

no rationality
in wanting you

Still I let this feeling
bring me down
So why am I still here
Remembering you

I want to forget this dream
How can I explain
What it would mean
If this was all a dream

I’ve been told
You’re like this
I need put this to rest
But I don’t want to
be another
who let go

I know it’s what you want
But were both so alike
So I carry on
not knowing were
it will get me

I know your right
But what does that matter
I’m still yours

I will slowly get there
Through time
But will you

I need to understand
Yet I know the truth
Im just another
You got scared

But when im all alone
All i think about is you
I’m trying to
hold back
from contacting you
Even though
I have so much
to say
I don’t know
What i would say

thinking of all we could be
trying to walk away
what I shall do
the memories won’t fade
I want so bad to turn this around

I need to burry this
Maybe all I need is
a goodbye
it will shatter me
But I can rebuild
what I have

All this time were wasting
Yet I guess time means
nothing to you
so tired of this
feeling

Maybe I do
regret
I need to get on
So I will become
What I need to be

You won’t respond
So who’s winning
I would like to
Remind you

hope you know
How I feel
still searching
For an answer

I want you so bad
but i dont know
how long
i can wait
before you turn
into just
a dream

x


Alysha Gibson

In one heart beat

I feel like I’ve woken up
from a dream
Yet I can still remember
Your smell that I crave
I can still remember your taste
That smile that was like sunshine
And those eyes
That held mine
I try so hard to hold on
Because I’m afraid you’re fading
I’ve awaken to find a gaping hole
I close my eyes to remember you
But it’s never real
You’re so far away that hurts to think of you
Let I can’t stop
I wish I could never wake up
From when you where holding me
As days go by
My life sails
Let the pains still fresh
I start to feel I dreamt all of it
Yet I can’t forget
No matter what
I pray and hope
That this is the bad dream
Yet the pains to real
I knew you where to good to be true
Still I cling on to your voice
Memories so Sweet
They linger in the air
Everywhere
I still hope you’re behind every noise
But I fear if you were,
I would be dreaming
I need to feel you again
Maybe then the pain will end
So I will keep dreaming of you
In the hope ill
Wake up to you
x

Msn

When I’m not talking
I’m wishing u would talk to me
When you never reply
I answer it for u
I know I take this too seriously
But I’m afraid
That it means something
When all I want
Is for you to say
Hi x

There I met you

Yet again I cry myself to sleep
You give me no place to hide
Just the bitter sweet sense
Of what I need to do
How I found myself there
I don’t know
But your here now
There I meet u
My bitter tears
Killing my heart slowly
There I met u
that place
dreams of what is to come
where all that matters
Is the hoping dread
Of where we might end up
where thoughts scatter into a million pieces
there I met you
I would like to say you saved me
But you didn’t
u just
Met me
you gave hope
someone to carry me
when my mind can’t go on
Yet my tears still fall
yet this time
out of your sweet love
that makes everyday worth waiting
for your voice to echo
those yet so simple
Bittersweet words
I love u
there I met you
where patience is tested
and strangers gather
my tears where a new
And every day I thank the lord
I decided to stop
And take that
9 o’clock bus where
I meet u
x

Dream of me and you

If there is such a voice of reason
There is none with you
When I know there’s no reality
Yet the need is not there

Yet the heart still cries
And the mind stumbles
The only thing is you
The only one I can think about is you

So why am I here in this romantic dream?
Hoping
Praying
That my dreams will become reality
Even though I must die first

Even if our hearts where to beat the same pace
Where would it leave us?
Living the simple dream of dreams
Where my heart will ache yet
I want it more than anything

So where does this leave us
My sweet dreams
My hopes
My prayers
When reason says there’s no hope even it
A miracle fired your heart

Even knowing
My heart will bleed
I find my self
lost without you
I would love you
Hold you
If you would yet me

Yet why does
Bitter sweet Life
Get in the way
Maybe there’s no serendipity
No bow and arrow
Just desperation


But the only sense of logic
That I stumble upon
That makes me fight
Is that you
You make me happy
I don’t know why, I understand how
You make me smile
You make laugh
Even if reasons of reality fight
My heart will fight back
This endless battle of hope

So what do I do?
Even if comes to the endless days and hours
With out you
I will
Keep living
Keep praying
For the hope of your love


Xxx
Alysha Gibson

Locked out

When my heart screams
And my tears flow
I realise
There’s so much more
Than wanting you
When I’m made to grasp a thought
When I’m made to cry out
It isn’t fair
Why me
Then I realise
There’s so much more
Than wanting you
When my own heart locks
Itself from me
There I sing the only tunes I know
In hope they will bring
The joy I need
When that next person arrives
And lets me in
I wipe away a tear
Of my reflection
Then I know
There’s so much more than
Wanting you
So here I am
Sitting on my doorstop
Waiting to be let in
Waiting for
My heart to let me
And as I get in
All thought is lost
And I will forget
That chat I had with my heart
And I will still want you
Even though
There’s so much more than
Wanting you
x

Right or Left!

Were all given a chance and a path to take a risk, to start something, it could lead to something beautiful or something bitter sweet, so do we take that chance, do we risk everything
Will it be worth it in the end, when u know u can never go back, wonder what may have been or what it may have been like if u hadn’t taken the risk, would we be sat here now, would we be thinking the same thing, would be in the situation before, living in the past having known nothing of what could have been, sitting there clueless having learnt nothing, sat there happy, or maybe not cause we are thinking of what or why we didn’t take the risk
That’s why we must take the risk, small risks in life can lead to flowers growing but also heart break, but tell me this can we not say that from this we have learnt nothing, we have achieved nothing and that we have not grown into something wiser or does every choice and risk we choice to take leave us still sat there unawares
I know even though I wish to be sat there unawares I have learnt so much and even though I wonder what my life would have been like If I hadn’t said yes, would density have given us the chance again or would we never see that path again, like it had been swept away by a sudden gush of wind that we will never know, but I think if having known what this path would lead to and our position we would find ourselves in, would we still take that path just to experience those beautiful sweet moments that will never be forgotten even though u know the consequences of tomorrow
But the fact is what’s the point of thinking about it, we can’t change history, I will tell u the point cause if we can honestly say that just one moment so short but magical was worth everything it has lead to and yet u argue every day whether it was worth it, questioning it do u think it is worth it now? or should the things we do and not question be the ones that mean the most, but can we honestly say that we have not questioned what could have been even in the best memoires and moments of our lives, we will always have regrets that we can never change but only hope that we will learn from them
I cannot come up with a solution to the questions in my head, there’s no answer I say to the game show host no answer just theories thoughts that lead to dreams that lead me back to where I started still sat here
Yet changed I feel none the wiser, just feel like there’s more junk in my head and dusty boxes that I thought where forgotten once opening again, I guess only tomorrow can tell me what will come tomorrow,
But let me ponder on this if we could go back in time how many of us would really find anything truly worthwhile to change, cause we know what the future is and that keeps us safe, I think I would only go back to smell and feel the memory once again and never let go
But tomorrows another day it could bring happiness or grief but whatever it brings I think I’m happy sat here having known I took a risk for once in my life and that brings a smile to my face
All i know is im holding on to the here and now!